You know that cringe scene in The Summer I Turned Pretty where Belly is saying "my whole life was measured in summers, it's like I don't really start living until I am on that beach with those people" or whatever she said, well that is exactly me.

I go to this one all girls summer camp for a month each summer and this is what it feels like. The feeling of the breeze making you hair fly around your face and the heat of the sun on your face as you close your eyes and focus on the laughs around you, that's what gets me through the school year: knowing that on this one month, in those moments, i will be around my friends and finally feel free. I get to wake up every morning and look around at the beautiful Canadian mountains, at the deep lake flowing near the trees and I can take a few steps and knock on my bestfriends door to ask if she wants to go for a swim, it makes me feel truly and deeply happy.

There is not a moment spent in those woods where I miss my life in the city, since the blue sky and the green leaves are all I could ask for. Which is why I am feeling nostalgic right now, since it is my last year as a camper there. Though I do plan to work there in the future, I know my friends will not all want to do that too. And even though I talk about how the camp makes me feel happy, the woods are nothing to me without the memories of running through them while laughing my heart out after a joke my friend made, the waters are nothing to me without the memories of paddle boarding at sunset with my favourite people and the cabins are nothing to me without the memories shared with some beautiful girls there. I am simply so grateful for every single moment spent there, yet I cannot shake the feeling of sadness that overcomes me when I remember this month will be my last with the people who I spent so much of my life with. I have known some of these girls for 8 years - I basically grew up with them- and knowing this might be my last time seeing them makes me feel so sad.

Though, this blog is happy. Because even if this is the last time all of this happens, it also means that it's happening another time! I will see those people again tomorrow, even if it's for the last time. I will climb the climbing wall again, even if it's for the last time. I will do everything I love and I will enjoy it for the last and final time in my life. There will be no time to weep or feel sad because I will be too busy enjoying and taking it all in. I hope I spend a great deal of time with a smile on my face this summer, and I hope you do too!